i got contacts today. it was less expensive with my insurance to get them instead of a new pair of glasses. everything looks funny. i forgot that glasses make everything look just a little bit smaller. i went to the store to buy a 20 oz. drink and was standing there going "hmm i've never seen these in 1 liters before." then i realised they really were 20 oz. and i felt like a complete moron.

i've dreamed about seeing the world in a whole new way but i didn't mean like this. i swear to god quarters look like half dollars. it's creeping me out knowing that for the last two years i've been seeing everything all wrong. i wonder if it's different for everyone. if everyone sees a different sized quarter.

wow. flashback.

in my highschool days of ... um ... experimenting with illegal substances ... i had an interesting thought. one of those thoughts that everyone else just dismissed as me being fried beyond all belief but now that i think about it i still think it's neat. i'm sitting at a booth in a denny's restaurant. i'm on two and a half tabs of acid and i can't stop staring at this tiny puddle of water that's formed on the table right next to where my drink is. i can't stop staring at it because the reflection of the light above the table is filling the little puddle and making it glow. it almost looks like the light's coming from inside the puddle and not from the bulb overhead. anyway. after what had to have been an hour at least i get up, go to the bathroom, and when i come back there's someone sitting where i was. so i grab my drink sit down somewhere else and plan on staring at my pretty little glowing puddle only to find out that my beloved puddle is no longer glowing. the glare is on a different spot on the table. so i tilt my head to the side and the glare moves. i insist someone else trades places with me and the glare is in yet another spot. yeah, okay, you're thinking it's nothing but i just couldn't get out of my head that if i were to look at the table at different points in the room the glare would be somewhere else on the table. i just couldn't get out of my head that the entire table top was covered in this bright light that nobody could see fully because they were limited physically to only be able to see a fraction of it at a time because of where they were in the room. the light wasn't moving. i was. then i had this brillant theory explaining the "light at the end of the tunnel." i'm not a very spiritual or religious person but i couldn't stop thinking that it was the only explaination. if we were able to remove ourselves from our bodies we'd be able to see the light reflected on the entire table. it'd be so bright we wouldn't be able to see anything else.

okay. now that i say it again it still sounds dumb. i still think it's neat. dumb. but neat.

goodnight.

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on 11.15.03 @ 11:48 am
stupid glare

ok. this is a picture from halloween. cute isn't it? i just thought i'd share that the poster in the background reeeaaallyyy says "mars exploration". i was so confused for a second until i realised this.

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